I am no artist(e), but I sometimes feel like a thing I do, that could be considered "art" no matter what it may be, just sort of doesn't deliver. Not in a personal way or an external way.
And as grudgingly nasty as that feels, it seems 1000% petty. Like, "oh, someone has a trophy full of cookies but doesn't like the flavor". A priviledged and First World type of gripe. But damn, everything about it *stings* so much.
Yet, art is a form of self expression. So perhaps that's what's happening. I am dissatisfied with myself. With what I am capable of. Or just...everything in general.
In a way, life falls short. I'm often disappointed. Let down. Or generally unamused by what people put forward, decide to focus on, coduct themselves, etc. And I likely have the same output.
A kind of "we're all in it together" approach. But the "together" doesn't always bear fruit. Because the "it" has such nefarious connontation.
It could likely be the byproduct of a decade of social media use. Seeing so many tossle and toll with the idea, still. Any platform, it all pans out similar.
That is disappointing
And as grudgingly nasty as that feels, it seems 1000% petty. Like, "oh, someone has a trophy full of cookies but doesn't like the flavor". A priviledged and First World type of gripe. But damn, everything about it *stings* so much.
Yet, art is a form of self expression. So perhaps that's what's happening. I am dissatisfied with myself. With what I am capable of. Or just...everything in general.
In a way, life falls short. I'm often disappointed. Let down. Or generally unamused by what people put forward, decide to focus on, coduct themselves, etc. And I likely have the same output.
A kind of "we're all in it together" approach. But the "together" doesn't always bear fruit. Because the "it" has such nefarious connontation.
It could likely be the byproduct of a decade of social media use. Seeing so many tossle and toll with the idea, still. Any platform, it all pans out similar.
That is disappointing